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In life, there is no good light guarantee…

I’d like to take a moment to talk about something personal.  Business related, sure.  But yet, something that I feel the need to share with you all so that you might have a little insight into my head, and my heart.  After all, that is what having a “blog” is all about, no?

Over the last year spent creating, nurturing, and growing this business I have been pulled in many directions.  Most of you know that I also have a full time day job, some of you may not.  I also have a wonderfully supportive husband, and am Mommy to two small children who I am sure you have seen pictures of, well, everywhere.  They are Kyleigh (2 and a half) and Stella Ann (16 months).

Most days I am Wife/Mommy…Worker Bee…Wife/Mommy…Photographer.  Other days that order changes.  Some days I am only one, and others the lines all blur.

At a time when a large number of people buying DSLR’s are trying their hand at professional Photography, it can be a daunting task to establish your presence, business plan, and create a product that sets you apart from the rest.  A few months back I became convinced that every image I posted on Facebook, or printed for a family album had to be professional quality.  Had to be perfectly lit, well placed, and run through PS5.  I found myself frustrated that my children wouldn’t pose together, stand still for justonesecond, or keep the pretty dress on.  I went to birthday parties and family events and beat myself up because the pictures just looked like snapshots.  Oh my goodness…NOT SNAPSHOTS!

And then…I stopped caring.  I also stopped stalking other photographers websites, blogs, and forums.  I realized that my work as a professional, was not the same as my work as a Mother.    That in order to get the picture of my girls holding hands in the backseat of my car, I would have to take it with my camera phone.  That I was missing really great life moments with family and friends by spending more time worrying about f-stops than how awesome the birthday cake was.  And that while the picture of my youngest wearing her first pair of jeans had the ISO set way too high, I didn’t mind.

All of a sudden I realized that in life, there is no good light guarantee.  You can always make the most of what you’ve got.  But I had to stop comparing myself to everyone else.  The obligations and stresses in my life are completely different than those I so admire.  When I am on a job as a Photographer, I give it 110%, every time.  My mind is on the camera, lighting, and framing.    At night when the babies are in bed and I am editing, I am focused on the task at hand.  This wasn’t something I started for additional income, this was something I started because it made my heart sing.  I have put in ridiculously late nights, hours pouring over manuals and help screens and tutorials, and drank many, many cups of coffee.  I am still learning every single day.  Someday, I hope it is my sole career.   But for now, my imperfect snapshots, will go up right alongside of my professional portraits.

When I started my 365-A Picture a Day project I had to decide if I was going to post the images on my personal or professional facebook page.  They went on my personal one.  Those pictures are taken by me as a Mommy.  At moments when my girls are doing something that I will want to remember forever, no matter what the atmosphere.  Are they professional?  No.  Are they incredibly meaningful and beautiful to me?  Yes.  I encourage everyone to pull out whatever camera they own and take pictures of their family.  As often as possible.

Of course though, now that Easter is coming up, I will be pulling out the dresses…begging them to pose together…and waiting (patiently) for them to sit still for justonesecond.

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  • sarah

    Great post Amy!ReplyCancel

  • Mom

    You know that I love your professional pictures – I can’t wait to see every single one and I am so proud of you for doing something that makes your heart happy. I was always told that if you do what you love you will love what you do. I know how hard it is to do what you love at the same time you are working full time, taking care your family and trying to take care of yourself. As I said, I love your professional pictures but I …LOVE…LOVE….LOVE…..the “mommy” pictures. Watching your girls grow up day by day through your eyes is what makes MY heart happy. As much as I enjoy looking at the weddings, the engagements and the newborn babies, when I see Stella’s smoosh face or Kyleigh’s big beautiful smile, I’m not looking for “professional” I’m looking for “mommy love”.ReplyCancel

  • Nicole DiGiovanni

    We have been friends for nearly 9 years now, oh how the time goes by…and in those years we’ve both grown in so many ways, and faced so many challenges to get us to the places we are today. I just want to tell you how proud I am of you and how much I truly love you and value our friendship every single day…I’ll see you in 13 days 🙂ReplyCancel

  • Nicole DiGiovanni

    Oh and all your pictures, “professional or mommy,” are the highlight of my morning, well besides my coffee of course, every single day…It’s these pictures that keep me connected to the people I love and miss so much.ReplyCancel

  • Sandy

    Amy, Wayne and I have absolutely loved watching you grow with your photography (and as a Mom of course) When I talk to anyone about your photos I always tell them that I’ve never seen anyone better, professional or otherwise. You just have a wonderful gift for seeing just the right picture at just the right time. We are so proud of you for how far you’ve come, just keep going girl, you can DO it all! Love you, SandyReplyCancel

  • Nicole

    Awesome. Thank you 🙂 As always! Your insight is SPOT ON! (and if you figure out the justonesecond please let me know so we can set them with Junior & Scarlett up via skype to discuss this… 😉 )ReplyCancel

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